The theme of the day. Death.

It is not morbid.
Every day we are all dying. Today, the universe was just a little more in my face about it.
Such beautiful tests. No less painful, but then what is pain?
What is beauty? Is it a sunset? A face? An image? All of it, but none of it. These words we have cannot define the modalities of nature. Of our natural way of exisiting. And yet, they are all we have, so they must suffice.
The universe, God, The Divine, insert appropriate limiting phrase here- has asked me to step up.
Step up to what?
::whew::
My calling. I have heard it loud and clear.
death.death. death. Siddie, you call to Kali in your prayers, you say you are the destroyer that you are ready. Ok.
We will see.
Can you remain equanimous when death is at every turn? When destruction and heartbreak summon you from all sides?
....That is what came today. I was unsuspecting the immediacy of my trials. And felt fear wash over me. Fear, and pain, and suffering. So much suffering. It had to be felt. I clung to it not. But let it wash over me, waves and waves of misery. Engulfed my body as I sat sobbing, eyes closed, clutching the Kali pendant Melanie gifted me from Africa. Give me the strength, I am ready, I am ready. I cannot refuse the call.
For near two hours I cried. Releasing all the emotional poisins of fear and aversion of death. Of the lack of understanding around this beautiful passage of physical form, which frees the spirit for it's next chance at reincarnation. Accepting, accepting, accepting.

And it stopped.

Serenity. Peace. A hint of sadness. (I am only human...) but what a clearing. It was so powerful. Humbling.
Seeing the threads interconnecting. How it all, every experience, every person, EVERYTHING is interwoven so intricately and beautifully in this massive quilt of life we call Mother Earth. Everything counts. From the largest beast to the smallest micro-organism. Everything plays on everything else. Life depends on YOU.
Because we are one.

Wonderful. Lessons of death.

Hm. But Siddie. Can you teach others that from destruction, always stems creation? Can you show them that life is a beautiful mystery meant to be explored? That because we are energy beings having a material experience there is no need to attach to physical form, we are not that form, therefore we cannot die.
This is a greater challange.

We humans are quick to despair. But slow to hope.

Open your eyes.
Open your eyes.
Every passing minute, is another chance to turn it all around.

Death arrived in the morning.
But God created a living picture in the evening.
We walked through it together. Awestruck.
Communitcating with the davis street dolphins
Recognizing the existence of a divine plan.
It cannot be random. We are here for a purpose.
We are powerful beyond our wildest dreams.

Open your eyes.